Thursday, November 30, 2006
mudpie turns 24! @ 12:02 AM
thanks for the cheeseburger and you're so sweet to drive down to accompany me. hee. may we have fun tomorrow!
my neck hurts. japanese 4 exam is gone. and i am worried for my paper tmr as well. *shakes head*
Saturday, November 25, 2006
he's sweet @ 11:07 PM
darlie rushed down to my house last night to meet me and stayed over to keep me company. even parked his dad's car downstairs. normally not allowed la.. but he just went ahead to do it last night. then he ran off early this morning back to his house to wash clothes. hmmm i have a househusband type of boyfriend. haha. i said sorry to him last night but he said it's confirmed that i love him too much. cos i really can't stand not seeing him for more than 2 days. it made me wonder if it was really true... but i replied a loud 'PI LEH' into his face. hurhur.
now he's back at my house... since afternoon.. waited for me to come back from my first paper. violet survived the exam!! YAY! he's sweet to me. i am nasty to him. haha. but my mum's sweet to him on my behalf. always cooking nice stuff for him... what am i anymore in the house... wuuwoo~~ !_! he's gonna keep me company till tmr afternoon. *beams* shall get back to him now. byes ppl!
Friday, November 24, 2006
missing you is always BAD @ 10:44 PM
things seem to get better. it felt like we fall in love all over again. but he has to work. can't spend time with me. i thought we can meet up tonight. again, the feeling is so strong.. i miss him so much. but due to his reasons, we cannot meet up. how i wish i did ask him for dinner.
it just leads me to this thought. what if, what if i just die tomorrow? wouldn't tonight be the last chance for us to meet? will it then be a lifelong regret for the two of us...? though my life has ended of course.
okay i hope i won't die so badly for my paper tmr.
just one last question. just why do i always have to miss him so badly at the inappropriate timesss? urgh.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
i care too much. some ppl just don't know how to speak. @ 6:08 PM
i also don't know why the conversation was carried out in THAT manner that day.
i guess i was quite hurt. right at that point of time i felt like hiding in a hole or what. damn it.
told mother about it. i was brought up by her. she simply understands how i feel... =)
i am not a STRONG person for that matter. mother says just be happy in life. she doesn't expect me to earn like super lot. as long as i feel comfortable, happy with my work, that's all that matters.
if such incident happens again or i do feel odd again, i know just what is happening... and i will make my decision.
Monday, November 20, 2006
i was so gone.. @ 11:18 AM
then saturday, in order to cheer me up. we went clubbing at dbl o. dear said 'just enjoy yourself tonight k'. and I DID NOT DISAPPOINT HIM AT ALL. haha yea. i know just what procedures to make myself lose control. first, have a bottle of bacardi breezer (which is like peanuts to some others) and burrrrp all you want. cos it's too gassy. then, share a jug of nice vodka ribena and have your dear daring you to drink a certain amount quick enough so that the high feeling would come fast. WALA!! then i can't walk straight already. and go onto the dance floor... for like 5 minutes? as if that was not enough, have another tequila shot and downed it quick. hot sensation rush down your gut and for a moment you thought you are suddenly clear-minded again. then try going to toilet again. i found myself leaning against whatever support i could find along the way to toilet. and i had to stop myself from smiling. hahaha.
i was high like dunno what shit already. i knew exactly what was going on. sam and cj asked was i ok. i wanted to say yes. but all i did was LAUGH AND THROW MY HEAD BACK. i had lost control over my actions...went to dance with bryan and ann and of course my dear. d' had to hold me throughout. cos i couldn't stand firmly on the ground on my own. yet i wanted to dance. singing out loud and jumping and dancing and kissing and going onto the platform when ann sort of went up with me. hahah bet she had fun larh! got clown to see. think d' also didn't know i would get so high. my head was heavy. so when i moved my body, head kept swinging. the more i danced the more dizzy i got. i wondered why people say dancing helps to clear the alcohol... because it certainly did not help. (HAHA because i shook my head...idiot)
didn't even wanna leave dance floor for a minute when d' asked me to go down with him as he needed to go toilet. so bryan and ann had to look after me. this is the funny part. i told Ann i needed the pole. (i needed the pole to support myself) she thought she heard i wanted to do pole dance or something and she brought me closer to the pole and thought i was going to do pole dancing. i knew she got it wrong but i was too blur in the mind to explain. hurhur. bryan said should have video taped me down. cos i was very funny.
okay~~ everything okay after dancing for 25-30 minutes. sort of became sober. then bryan and Ann asked me and d' to drink flaming lamborghini. some flame thing plus milk. and i was already in a state whereby *you ask me to drink, i drink*. hahah while waiting i sang BSB's "as long as you love me" loud as can be at the bar when they played the song. rem dear saying 'do you know you are shouting into my ear?' and i shouted back 'YES I KNOW!' hahahha...
continue to dance arrrhhhh. dance somemore.... dear hugged me tight and i felt uncomfortable. haha. finally, i went to puke and it was time to go home. though i puked and felt very uncomfortable at that moment, i knew i enjoy the greatest fun ever. HAHA. clubbing is always so fun. i can spend $13 dollars and go crazy. the lamborghini was uncalled for larr. haha. dear described me as 'wild girl'. hurhur. sorry everyone. to have scared you guys. but yup, definitely going again! =) gonna bring ps nex
t time!! the last photo is actually sam and her guy ben. :)
Friday, November 17, 2006
sleeping habit @ 9:33 AM
and yup, i need to get my ass movin'.. i need to study. HAHA.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
birthdaysss. @ 12:53 PM
takuya's birthday was on monday!! happy 34th birthday!! i really wonder how his wife celebrated for him. he must have felt so fortunate and blessed to have his 2 daughters and wife by his side.
but anyway, today the 15th is my kawan's birthday!! and also doctor bra's. haha.
HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY RYAN & BRYAN
and not forgetting ginny tan. HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY GINNY! =)
daryl asked me not to go his office to accompany him for lunch. so here i am without lunch. hmmm. he must be having a date with some woman in his office. hahahaha. i am just bullshitting here.
the question of getting married. i've been hearing it quite often lately. from BOTH daryl's popo and ah ma. they say they can't wait already. hahaha...and always from chris. and also from mavis' ah ma. oh my... we see how la okay. haha. really have no idea why the question keeps popping up recently...
oh i just typed out my resume. just thought it's time to write one. =) hope it doesn't appear too lousy. my work experience abit "AO" larr but bet it's better than having nothing to write about.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
all's well @ 9:32 PM
i had my japanese oral communication yesterday. erm it's just a nicer name for oral la. haha. i was of course nervous. got some parts wrong but overall, my remarks were okay.
i had a fun guest lecture today.. by a CEO of a chinese medical company. it was interesting. then i went for my chinese drama tutorial. supposed to have time for some students to share their views on some drama. but as usual, our lecturer was too engrossed in explaining stuff that he had no time for it. hahaha spared me.. cos i didn't prepare much. last night was too tired so i slept real early and didn't prepare anything. got quite worried when i saw my friends writing their own notes for the presentation. haha. good thing i don't have to be chosen by doraemi chan. haha doraemon's sister.. my hk lecturer loves doraemon you see. =) so cute right...
ok let's talk about the field trip today. yup. it's our japanese 4 module's field trip. we went to the botanic gardens. yesterday when i had my oral, 3 teachers were in the room. one of them was suzuki mami sensei. i have never been taught by her. so today when i went to pass chiba sensei my taxi receipt, she said my name out and wrote it on the receipt. at the same time, suzuki sensei said, 'ahh chew san' to chiba sensei. so i was confused and looked at them. suzuki sensei then explained because i did well ytd, so she remembered me. hahaha. so nice to hear that. phew!! =)
OH MY BIRKENSTOCK PAPILLIOS IS HERE!!!! i love them very muchhh. so pretty. gonna wear them tomorrow. i don't wanna share with my sis. i want her to be contented with her own madrid. don't wear my floridas! sam's pair is quite nice too. gonna pass to d' and let it be a surprise for her.
oh i just got to know britney spear's going to divorce her despicable ex-husband kevin federline. her husband is just such a jerk. he slept with other women and now still wanna get such a big sum of money from her... unbelievable. someone can actually betray his love (was his love i hope) for money and things get so nasty. mabbe right from the beginning, he was out to cheat her money. oh man. 2 kids and gotta pay him alimony. why can't he just die. grrr.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
apologetic bearsss @ 8:36 PM
haha measuring like 40cm by27cm. somehow, these few days, i feel so much closer to my bendan. :)
death note @ 12:26 AM
somehow, my keyboard is working. yay!! haha i am using my desktop now~
i just went to watch *DEATH NOTE* with dear, jianping, jeffrey and wiches... the 3 of them are from my japanese 4 coursemates. haha wiches kept laughing. very cute. the show was great. haha. sent me laughing. we watch it quite late but still, managed to catch it. =) *beams*
hope my nihongo presentation will go well tomorrow.
i am happy. i got all my term papers back. B+ for reproductive health, A- for the chinese book review and A+ for my genealogy write-up. wooHoOs! haha all group work. must really thank my group members. =) hey, but it's not as if i didn't do anything k. haha. hard work paid off...
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
the beautiful yet hurting love @ 10:01 AM
am i doing the right thing now? i actually skipped lecture for the first time in the semester and sitting here at home to wait for the flowers. flowers that were suppose to cheer me up after causing me to be upset and angry for the whole of yesterday. running up and down the flat so many times. tearing... sitting on the staircase and thinking it through... hugs and more tears... all the while he just sat with me. kept apologising. but i didn't want to look at him. mind was in a blank.
i guess things are alright now. =)
love is very tiring. it's draining my energy away... i wanna be more dependent. no longer relying so much on my partner. it just makes me feel more and more useless..
one more paper to be handed in next monday. can we accomplish it? i hope so. there's a quiz tmr and i haven't started on it. why does this semester seem to be so busy?? is "you're in the third year." the answer to it?
anyway, i am starting work on 7 december. or somewhere near that date. at fourskin again. i need the money. hope i can get to work with jasmine.